Well...my week with the kids has been difficult. We have had a good time, but they have been antsy and well, difficult. The joys...
I found out some info between yesturday and today...interestingly enough the boys dad isn't in Pittsburg, he's in Germany and decided not to tell me, nor tell me that he wasn't taking the boys for their afternoon this week either. Apparently told the kids I said that they couldn't go with him. Funny, as I had no idea about the trip. The other piece of interesting info is that his house is featured in the Wellsboro "Mountain Home" magazine in a real estate ad as a 'dream home' for sale for a steal of $625,000.00. Yeah. So my question is...where the hell is he going? Derek and his older 1/2 brother have mentioned South Carolina, I guess the kids and their future holds a steady second place to whatever plans apparently are in the works.
Ok, so to the bottom of it all, I'm a little sad. I guess I thought that though I had no stake in the house, that it would be there for the kids. I didn't expect a change, at least for them. I do have to say that at least they were there...the place I brought them home to when they were born. The place I got married in (as big as a mistake it was), the place that still, though not mine, holds a lot of memories for the kids sake. blah, blah, blah....
On the flip side, change is hitting hard. Things will change regardless of where I stand and what I do. Which feels like nothing at this point. So I better get on it. Who knows. Maybe I'll end up in South Carolina myself....
Monday, May 12, 2008
Saturday, May 03, 2008
Happy Mothers Day To Me!
I'm very happy in spite of myself this week. The ex is taking off to Pittsburg and I have the kids the entire week AND weekend to myself! (During the school year, the boys dad has all the weekends, and so this is my first this year!) I am trying to think of something extra special to do...but haven't decided yet. If you happen to be reading my blog and have an idea, feel free to post it! We also have the unintterupted week, so I can take Dalton to activity night at school on Tuesday, and the boys to the art show on Wednesday.
My job is sucking badly. I'm not getting hours consistently...and D paid off the remaining alimony which primarily went to my attorney, so that monthly payment I counted on until July is gone. I'm pretty worried about financial things of late...but hopeful because there are 3-5 teaching positions opening up for next fall. I complete successful interviews every night from about 10-2, when I should be trying to sleep.
My youngest will probably repeat his first grade year. It's basically my decision with a recommendation from his teacher and breaks my heart since he will not complete the 'graduation' with his first grade peers, but he is in a class that 'loops' with Kindergarten as well, so he will have a familiar group of kids to remain with. I'm frustrated with the school, we were supposed to meet with the psychologist, principal, reading support and regular teachers...but no one has contacted me yet and I won't decide until I have a chance to talk to them. They are getting ready for graduation and I just don't want Dalton to be any more disappointed than possible.
My oldest didn't have the greatest 4th grade year. Many, many issues, but few huge ones. I expected it somewhat, being the third school he's attended thus far. I'm really hoping that throughout the summer he can maintain friendships, and maybe slip into the coming year with a little more ease than this last year. He will be in middle school. I'd like to get him pointed in some direction, a sport, art, something! to stick to. His art teacher would told me that if he would just focus, he could be amazing, but that in art club, if they begin a topic/project he isn't interested in she loses him. I'm going to do a little digging to see what programs are available for summer. It strikes me at times that my son is growing up...and his 'childhood' is more than half over. Wow.
The briefs are filed for the ex's appeal, so now its a waiting game. I'm almost paid up on the $2500 retainer finally. I try not to think about it too much, but its there in the back of my mind.
I'm having a lot of headaches. I have never had headaches with the exception of a cold or sinus infection, but lately have them on a daily or every other day basis. Bad ones, the kind that you can't move without throbbing or nausea, and pain reliever merely takes some of the edge off.
On the lighter side of things...we have had lots of visitors lately, neighbor kids trickling in...lots of activity, laughter and play. Derek has never been a highly social kid, but he's growing into that part in bits. Spring has sprung and its wonderful to be outside, in the sandbox and on the trampoline and the sense of adventure has returned in full force. I'm ready for the laid back schedule of summer vacation. Life is never perfect, but I'm happy with just plain good.
My job is sucking badly. I'm not getting hours consistently...and D paid off the remaining alimony which primarily went to my attorney, so that monthly payment I counted on until July is gone. I'm pretty worried about financial things of late...but hopeful because there are 3-5 teaching positions opening up for next fall. I complete successful interviews every night from about 10-2, when I should be trying to sleep.
My youngest will probably repeat his first grade year. It's basically my decision with a recommendation from his teacher and breaks my heart since he will not complete the 'graduation' with his first grade peers, but he is in a class that 'loops' with Kindergarten as well, so he will have a familiar group of kids to remain with. I'm frustrated with the school, we were supposed to meet with the psychologist, principal, reading support and regular teachers...but no one has contacted me yet and I won't decide until I have a chance to talk to them. They are getting ready for graduation and I just don't want Dalton to be any more disappointed than possible.
My oldest didn't have the greatest 4th grade year. Many, many issues, but few huge ones. I expected it somewhat, being the third school he's attended thus far. I'm really hoping that throughout the summer he can maintain friendships, and maybe slip into the coming year with a little more ease than this last year. He will be in middle school. I'd like to get him pointed in some direction, a sport, art, something! to stick to. His art teacher would told me that if he would just focus, he could be amazing, but that in art club, if they begin a topic/project he isn't interested in she loses him. I'm going to do a little digging to see what programs are available for summer. It strikes me at times that my son is growing up...and his 'childhood' is more than half over. Wow.
The briefs are filed for the ex's appeal, so now its a waiting game. I'm almost paid up on the $2500 retainer finally. I try not to think about it too much, but its there in the back of my mind.
I'm having a lot of headaches. I have never had headaches with the exception of a cold or sinus infection, but lately have them on a daily or every other day basis. Bad ones, the kind that you can't move without throbbing or nausea, and pain reliever merely takes some of the edge off.
On the lighter side of things...we have had lots of visitors lately, neighbor kids trickling in...lots of activity, laughter and play. Derek has never been a highly social kid, but he's growing into that part in bits. Spring has sprung and its wonderful to be outside, in the sandbox and on the trampoline and the sense of adventure has returned in full force. I'm ready for the laid back schedule of summer vacation. Life is never perfect, but I'm happy with just plain good.
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