I had a great big pancake with strawberries in it, fresh strawberries on it and strawberry syrup (made by a maple syrup company) drizzled on top. It was deliciously sinful. Yum.
The kids cleaned up all of their toys from the three rooms of the house that they scattered them in and are now painting quietly, complimenting each other on their work. I'm off to the tub...then we are meeting a friend and her two girls for a late lunch before we hit "Night at the Museum" at the theater.
Why can't every day be THIS GOOD!?
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Saturday, January 13, 2007
I had to laugh...now, not then.
I want to write tonight. But I also really want to go to bed. So I found an old(er) blog I wrote on myspace one weekend in October that struck me as funny now, but at the time had me really, really annoyed. Dalton the terror. My devil child with the face of an angel. Master of Mischief. How boring would my life be without him!! And yes, on my away time I blogged on myspace. Yup I was lost in the myspace craze for a bit. Anywho...
"You can clutch to the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present."
I keep thinking about the wishes I make every day. "I wish I was there...I wish I could have gone...I wish I had more time...I wish I had done this..." And maybe there is a very good reason I am where I am at an given time. Maybe I just need to make more of the minutes that are filled up than wishing for a minute that really won't exist or replace it. Maybe I'm not taking advantage of all that each day has to offer right where I'm at.
And somehow this blog arose from my extreme frustration at the ruination of my night with my scary movie. Somehow my son destroyed the DVD player, the only one we have. Looks like a great deal of my get ahead money (my divorce settlement) will be now 'maintaining the status quo' money. So I'm using these few full minutes to evaluate just how important it was to enjoy a scary grown up dvd on my 'alone grown up time' when these four kids (my two boys and two nieces) go to bed. So in honor of embracing the present, my conclusion is that it was.....
PRETTY FUCKING IMPORTANT.
God damn it anyway.
(Yikes I was mad. And NO ONE could fix the dvd player. It was expensive and only one year old. But, it made it a year with Bubba in the house. So I should count myself lucky.)
"You can clutch to the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present."
I keep thinking about the wishes I make every day. "I wish I was there...I wish I could have gone...I wish I had more time...I wish I had done this..." And maybe there is a very good reason I am where I am at an given time. Maybe I just need to make more of the minutes that are filled up than wishing for a minute that really won't exist or replace it. Maybe I'm not taking advantage of all that each day has to offer right where I'm at.
And somehow this blog arose from my extreme frustration at the ruination of my night with my scary movie. Somehow my son destroyed the DVD player, the only one we have. Looks like a great deal of my get ahead money (my divorce settlement) will be now 'maintaining the status quo' money. So I'm using these few full minutes to evaluate just how important it was to enjoy a scary grown up dvd on my 'alone grown up time' when these four kids (my two boys and two nieces) go to bed. So in honor of embracing the present, my conclusion is that it was.....
PRETTY FUCKING IMPORTANT.
God damn it anyway.
(Yikes I was mad. And NO ONE could fix the dvd player. It was expensive and only one year old. But, it made it a year with Bubba in the house. So I should count myself lucky.)
Monday, January 08, 2007
Yikes, I haven't been here since October??
Well...Lots of new events to report...but I have been insanely busy up until Christmas...at which time I lost my employment until my client receives her approval for services. BAD timing...and instead of using my free time wisely I have widdled it away with anxiety and malaise. In essence, a total waste of two weeks.
In about two weeks I turn 33. I believe it's the one year anniversary of my blog (a term I use loosely since there is a group of skilled and faithful bloggers out there to which I don't belong) and I think it's time to change it up. So, sometime between now and then, I'm going to rework this thing, in a way that will represent how I intend to 're-invent' my life.
I was thinking about stuff tonight. I have to give myself this talk every once in awhile because I allow myself to get sucked into the mire and wallow there. I have been LAZY because I'm DISINTERESTED in my direction. I need CHANGE, but find I don't seek it, rather I wait for it. I'm going to be 33. And the here and now is acceptable, though not commendable...and I want to BE more. Here is so much better than last year at this time. But it's not enough.
I think that in my twenties, I made discoveries about myself. Found myself so-to-speak. My thirties will be spent refining me.
The one thing I'm acutely aware of, I'm not getting any younger.
In about two weeks I turn 33. I believe it's the one year anniversary of my blog (a term I use loosely since there is a group of skilled and faithful bloggers out there to which I don't belong) and I think it's time to change it up. So, sometime between now and then, I'm going to rework this thing, in a way that will represent how I intend to 're-invent' my life.
I was thinking about stuff tonight. I have to give myself this talk every once in awhile because I allow myself to get sucked into the mire and wallow there. I have been LAZY because I'm DISINTERESTED in my direction. I need CHANGE, but find I don't seek it, rather I wait for it. I'm going to be 33. And the here and now is acceptable, though not commendable...and I want to BE more. Here is so much better than last year at this time. But it's not enough.
I think that in my twenties, I made discoveries about myself. Found myself so-to-speak. My thirties will be spent refining me.
The one thing I'm acutely aware of, I'm not getting any younger.
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